Three Treasures
"Blood Lust", "A Love Letter" And "The Reply" By Jackie
December 28, 2003
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~~ BLOOD LUST ~~ Hollow feelings deep in my stomach, Aching twitches of hunger, But I ignore it for now, Must not hurt another. Omission doesn't make it go away, The hunger travels up into my chest, My veins burn with desire, But I must ignore it. Now my heart beats faster, My veins scream for attention, My heart knows the place to go, My body moves towards the source. This will end the lust for substance, As my mouth opens wide, My fangs get ready to penetrate, I take a bite and taste the sweet nectar. The energy, the nourishment, the life, It flows throughout my body, The warm glow, the heart beats steadily, My mind and body settles down, satisfied. ~Jackie~ |
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"A LOVE LETTER" My dearest Julia, It's taken me a very long time to face the truth about my own feelings for you and our relationship. For as long as I can remember, I've been obsessed with my love for Josette. Her memory has helped sustain me all those years trapped in my coffin. I became insanely jealous of all mankind, living, loving and having what they wanted while I rotted in my hideous prison of a coffin. Since I could no long have her, I looked to women that reminded me of her. When I first met you, I was still under the influence of those tormented years and I didn't just hate you, dear Julia, I hated everyone, including myself. All my desires were contained in my obsessive ideals, which no longer existed. I was blinded by hatred, conceit, exterior beauty, and vanity. I sincerely hope you will find it in your compassionate heart to forgive me. At this point all I want for you is your happiness. If you are happy with another, then I will try to also be happy for you. My heart is aching but you will always be a part of it. I hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me as I am trying to forgive myself for my blindness. If you decide to come back to me, I will always be your faithful and loving, ~Barnabas~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ By ~Jackie~ Oct. 21, 2003 |
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"THE REPLY TO A LOVE LETTER" December 1971 To My Dearest Barnabas, I apologize for not writing to you sooner because when I received your letter in October, I placed it in my desk drawer, unopened. At the time, I did not want to read nor feel obligated to answer it. As you see, I have issues to deal with concerning you, Barnabas. I was going to write a longer letter giving you all my reasons why I can't be with you. I kept starting over. It all comes down to my feelings for you. Our friendship is unbreakable. I always feel your pain and I want to comfort you. Your heart and arms turn in other directions. Your blind eye for me is my broken heart. Just yesterday, I opened and read your letter. I genuinely believe your eyes are open. For me to be with you, my dearest Barnabas, I would have to know your heart yearns to me. I need your love. My love for you is deeper than the ocean's depth. I ache for your passion. I crave your tender touch. I desire your comfort. I yearn to bathe in your loving kisses. I will surrender my heart to you if you are able to acknowledge your love for me. If I see you at my door, I will gladly welcome you in. Please do not come to me if you are not willing to have all of me. With all my heart and love, I am eternally yours... ~Julia~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~ by ~Jackie~ Dec. 28, 2003 |